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IX. Lobotomy



sit here in this sterile room, the scent of antiseptic stinging my nostrils, as I reflect on the life I once led. Sir Roland Ashford, they called me—a knight of honor, a defender of the realm. Now, I am but a shadow of that man, trapped within these padded walls of this USA asylum.

The flickering fluorescent lights cast an eerie glow, illuminating the starkness around me. My heart races as I hear the distant echoes of laughter and cries—sounds that seem to taunt me. I have fought many battles, but none as fierce as the one raging within my mind. The memories of comrades lost haunt me like specters, their faces twisted in agony as they fell in battle. Their cries still ring in my ears, and I cannot silence them.

Today is different. Today, they will perform the procedure—a lobotomy, they call it. A cure for my madness, or so they say. But what is madness? Is it not simply the mind's way of grappling with horrors too great to bear? As I await my fate, I wonder if this is truly salvation or merely a descent into a deeper darkness.

The door creaks open, and a nurse enters with a clipboard in hand. Her expression is clinical, devoid of empathy. “It’s time,” she says flatly, her voice echoing against the cold walls. I nod numbly, feeling the weight of inevitability settle upon my shoulders.

As they lead me down the sterile corridor, I catch glimpses of other patients—lost souls wandering through their own torment. Some mumble incoherently while others stare blankly at the walls. I feel a pang of dread; will I join them? Will this procedure strip away what little remains of my identity?

They guide me into an operating room, bright and blinding. The stark white sheets on the table seem to beckon me closer. I lie down, my heart pounding like a war drum. The doctor enters—a man with cold eyes and an unsettling calmness about him.

“Just relax,” he says with an air of authority that offers no comfort. “You won’t feel a thing.” 

But how can one relax when facing the unknown? I close my eyes tightly, trying to summon memories of valor—the clashing swords, the cheers of victory—but they slip through my fingers like grains of sand.

As the anesthesia begins to take hold, I feel a heaviness wash over me. The world blurs at the edges; voices become muffled echoes. Just before darkness envelops me completely, I hear Umbra—the dark reflection of my soul—whispering from deep within.

**“You cannot escape me,”** it hisses. **“This is only the beginning.”**

And then there is nothing.

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**Time passes in an ethereal haze**, moments blending together as I drift between consciousness and oblivion. When I finally awaken, disoriented and groggy, the room feels different—strange and foreign. The shadows linger longer than before; they twist and writhe at the corners of my vision.

I try to sit up but find myself restrained by soft straps across my arms and legs. Panic rises within me like bile. What have they done? 

A nurse approaches cautiously, her face etched with concern. “You’re awake,” she says softly, as if speaking to a frightened child.

“What... what have you done to me?” My voice trembles as confusion floods my mind.

“You had a lobotomy,” she replies gently. “It was necessary for your treatment.”

Treatment? What treatment could justify such violation? As fragments of memory flit through my mind—fading images of battles fought and comrades lost—I realize something crucial has been taken from me.

“Am I still... Roland?” I whisper hoarsely.

The nurse hesitates before answering, her gaze drifting away as if searching for words that elude her grasp. “You are safe now,” she finally says.

Safe? Or merely empty? 

As days turn into weeks in this asylum’s grasp, I find myself drifting further from who I once was—my valor replaced by an unsettling numbness. Umbra lurks in the shadows of my mind, growing bolder with each passing day.

**“You thought you could silence me,”** it taunts softly. **“But now we are one.”**

And so here I remain—a knight stripped of his sword and shield—lost in a labyrinthine asylum where sanity slips through my fingers like water. In this new reality, where shadows reign supreme and memories fade like distant echoes, I wonder if perhaps madness was not something to be cured but rather an integral part of who I am.

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